A tale of Two Thursdays

(Yes I know it’s Tuesday)

Welcome to the last week of January … how are we already here? It’s going to be a busy week here because our best friend is coming to visit and my hubs birthday is on Sunday. So posting may get more sparse than normal later in the week.

Now to the heart of the matter …

Last Thursday was a notable day for two reasons.

First off, the #40DayChallenge I’ve mentioned in my last two posts began. So far so good. Eating more protein then I ever thought I could and feeling the burn from some great workouts at my gym (Strength Rx Crossfit … if you are in West LA, check them out!). I feel energized and ready for each challenge that comes my way. My biggest challenge with this challenge is going to be time, I am going away for work from 5-13 February and again from 24-26 February. That means at least 10 days without being able to log a class in at the gym (we need 30 classes in 40 days) and the challenges of eating on the road. Guess I’ll be the girl in the airport with a shaker bottle and protein powder in her carry on along with bars and snacks from Whole Foods. #fitgirlproblems

The second reason … I found out that an immediate family member has cancer.

I’ll just let that hang here for a minute

If you’re thinking wow that fucking sucks, you could not be more correct. It really does and definitely threw my world for a loop. I worked out my initial anxiety at the gym and it comes in waves as I’ve gotten used to the idea, cancer in my immediate family. Sure I can tell myself that it’s not a super “serious” form, very treatable and the odds are in our favor but then I come back to the fact that it really fucking sucks. Additionally, I am 3,000 miles from this person and cannot be there to help. This fucking sucks … did I say that already?

That Thursday was the diagnosis and this Thursday, in a shitty mirrored way, we get the prognosis. In two days, really less than that, we’ll have a plan of action and the treatment phase begins. I’m not sure yet how much I want to talk about that here but it’s on my mind, my heart, and in my life so it will probably end up here more than I plan on … I’ll try not to be obnoxious and over indulge, abusing your good will. Lots of people get cancer or have family members with it, but this is my family and it’s my blog so I’ll write what I want which may mean venting about it.

To that end …#FuckCancer

That’s all she said.

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Starting Line

As promised yesterday, here are my official stats to start the 40 Day Challenge.

 

Right Arm – 12″

Shoulders – 41.5″

Bust – 36″

Waist – 30.5″

Hips – 41.5″

Right Thigh – 23.3″

Weight 153

BMI 22.0

Body Fat 23.5% 

Goal – Increase muscle mass and reduce Body Fat Percentage to 20%

Today is off to a good start nutriton wise; 

  • Yummy breakfast of carbs and protein (see Twitter) 
  • Took my fish oil, vitamin D and iron
  • Drank 36 oz of water so far (daily goal of 77oz) 

And I’m on to my first protein shake of the day, 36g of pea protein mixed with 10oz of plain unsweetened almond milk.

Back to work now at my real job, for now that’s all she said. 

40 days & 40 nights

Starting tomorrow I embark on a 40-day challenge at my CrossFit box. The rules call for 30 classes in 40 days, increased water consumption, daily fish oil supplements and diet modifications. No sugar and low/no carbs … Basically a paleo diet. The goal is to have the greatest change in body composition measured by body fat percentage, weight and measurements.

I finished in third place during our last challenge in June (top female finisher) and more importantly I jump started a lifestyle change that I’ve stuck to ever since. That challenge put me on the path to lose 20lbs over the course of 2015 and feel healthier then ever eating a clean, paleo diet 80-90% of the time … Life is too short to pass up great non-paleo foods all the time. 

As we begin this new challenge, my favorite trainer wants me to try something a little different this time. Instead of losing weight, I need to eat more and build muscle. 

To be honest, I recoiled internally at the thought. I’m not sure I’m mentally prepared to deal with trying to make gains. I admit that seeing the number go down on the scale feels good and now I’m afraid to lose that feeling. I’m afraid to lose that confidence I’ve gained by getting to my high school weight again. What if I lose that and don’t get the muscle tone that I am hoping to get?? Then I’m just fat again and I don’t want to feel that way. 

It’s a big psychological hurdle for me … I’m really good at clean eating and getting the weight off. And I really enjoy being skinny again. I never thought I could be one of those ripped girls with great flat abs and defined muscles throughout. I learned to accept the softer parts of my body… Which are wonderful and feminine, but never could be overcome. I decided long ago that I never could be that girl, it just wasn’t in my wheelhouse.

To be clear, I dont want to look like a body builder but like someone who takes care of their body. Model skinny is something I could reach (I’m 5’10” so it’s in my wheelhouse) but do I really want that? Or do I want to realize the strength that exists within me? 

So despite my reservations I am going to give it a shot, see what I’m capable of and attempt to safely and naturally shed body fat and put on muscle. My favorite trainer Mike is going to help me get a meal plan together. Big breakfasts, medium lunches and smaller dinners. Clean eating that includes healthy carbs to fuel my body and protein throughout the day. 

I’m not going to use any supplements besides a daily scoop or two of 100% pure pea protein (I like this one, Now Sports Pea Protein) and maybe some pre-workout to give me energy. I want to find a vegan, all-natural one. Any suggestions? 

It’s time to be see what the stronger me looks like. I’ll post on here regularly about my progress, my diet and I’ll even share my weight and other stats.

Wish me luck!  

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Yoga thoughts 

  1. Can we just stay in child’s pose for the whole class?
  2. Why do we hold downward dog this long? My dog does it for like a second, maybe 2.
  3. Ouch my hips are stiff!
  4. I will keep my eyes closed, I will be zen … I have opened my eyes so I don’t fall.
  5. What kind of warrior stands like this?
  6. Who knew standing still could be this hard …
  7. Is it time for Shavasana yet?
  8. Ahh pigeon pose … The better your form, the more it hurts. I kind of like that.
  9. Happy baby really does feel better if you smile.
  10. Shavasana… Clear my mind … What should I make for lunch? Do I need more groceries? Laundry done? That work assignment is so annoying … Oh wait clear my mind, relax … Seriously what am I eating after this.
  11. Namaste

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Failure is not an option

I knew this would happen. It always happens to me. I get a good idea, feel great about it for a week and then lose momentum. Sometimes I last longer maybe a month or two but I clearly do not thrive in an unstructured environment, where I set the rules. The latest example, I have not posted on this site for a week and I had every intention of posting with far greater regularity. I feel like a failure and that feeling alone can keep me on the sidelines. But it’s a new year and I owe it to myself to overcome the lesser parts of my nature and attempt to keep this thing alive. After all, how can it be “all she said” if I haven’t said all that I want to say.

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I thought about posting dozens of times this past week, ideas about fitness, motivation, food, humor etc. all came to mind and yet when the time came I could not get myself to sit down and write. Granted, I have a job and responsibilities outside of it that keep me busy but I could have made the time. That’s the key, it’s making the time. Time does not change, it’s there in it’s finite quantities every day. All you can do is structure yourself and your life to make the most of each hour/minute/second. Sometimes that means sitting on the couch, snuggled up to watch a movie (or right now Making a Murderer ..OMG it’s so fascinating, I haven’t finished yet but I really want to so I can start reading all the new information about it) or it can be the hours I spend at the gym each week. Each bring value just like writing in this blog does. I just have to make the time to do it.

What makes sitting down to write difficult is that a) I write best when I’m at my computer (so not on my couch = less comfy) and it’s set up in another room away from my family and b) no one is over my shoulder motivating me to keep going. It’s that second part that really gets me … finding the motivation to step away from my furry kids, my husband and every other distraction to come write. It feels a mix of selfish, satisfying but also lonely that I’m not sure I can handle. Maybe I am not cut out for the blogger life?

Conversely though I do have a self-motivated and sustained hobby that has been a passion for years now; cooking. I love it! I willingly spend hours in the kitchen at times but I don’t feel as guilty about that as I do about writing. First off, our kitchen is central to the home so I’m not tucked away from the world as I am in my office and second, the product is shared and enjoyed socially. I could never imagine my life without it and I want to feel that way about writing too.

Perhaps one of the reasons I remain so motivated and driven about cooking is that I have to eat to live. And if I enjoy eating great food then why not make it myself and double the enjoyment. I think that is the key … I need to find a way to make writing an essential part of my experience so that a day or a week without it feels empty. Then making the time would be easy and the guilt would disappear.

I think the first step in making it essential is to make it mandatory, like brushing my teeth and washing face. Those are things that start out mandatory as kids but become habitual  and you definitely feel it when you don’t do it. So I am making a mandate because I do not want to fail at this … I will blog 4 times this week. Hopefully hitting on some of my favorite topics that readers (if I have them) will enjoy more than my introspective musings (like this post). Look for posts on food, style, motivation and friendship this week.

Until next time, which there will be, that is all she said.

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Source: Addicted 2 Success

 

Sports Fan

Forgot to mention this but I love sports, my hubs loves sports and we make a concerted effort to watch all we can. I am of the opinion that fandom should not be gendered (aka courting female fans… We like sports for the same reasons as men thank you very much). Just make gear that looks good on my frame 🙂 

So as we enter a new year and playoff season, I will post and tweet about all my Boston sports teams, especially my beloved New England Patriots. I know some people hate them but I love them … excellence incites envy. Deal with it 🙂 

I also love my college teams and right now it’s all about Gonzaga Basketball. I’ll be cheering them on tonight with fellow Zags at O’Briens on Wilshire. Go Zags!
 

Friday Five

Well the first full work week of 2016 is almost in the books and I should get back to my actual job but first I’ll attempt to create a regular feature. my “Friday Five.” It’s intended purpose is to be a list of things on my mind going into the weekend.

Here we go!

  1. To paraphrase the great Christopher Walken, “I’ve got a fever and the prescription is more CrossFit!” I’ll be kicking off my weekend with a WOD tonight at my box, StrengthRx CrossFit (www.srxcrossfit.com)
    *Buzzfeed (one of my all time favorite sites) did a video feature with our box! Check it out here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EwGCEQ-2P9Q
  2. Is it weird that I am mildly obsessed with my new bed risers? Put them on our bed last night and minutes later instantly had more storage space (which I promptly filled up). I must be growing up because I get more excited about home cleaning and storage products/projects then I used to.
    Home-it Adjustable Bed Risers, Set, 8-inch Bed Riser and Bed Lifts http://amzn.com/B00MH74S16
  3. Excited, inspired and looking for direction would be my feelings about this blogging adventure. Will it lead somewhere? I have no idea but it’s fun to have an outlet for my ideas, humor and passions.
  4. I ate soup for breakfast today, sounds weird but it was awesome! A cup of homemade sweet potato coconut curry soup with an egg and peas on top made for a filling, low-carb and delicious start to my day. I should have taken a picture!
  5. I think this delicious Beef Bulgogi Bowl ( http://paleomg.com/beef-bulgogi-rice-bowls/) is on the menu this weekend! Thanks for the recipe Juli Bauer (Paleomg.com). Your blog is one of many that inspired me to start doing this!

That’s all for today! Enjoy the weekend!

Phenomenal, Magical, Adventurous, Creative, Smart Cookie

Shorty in the house

This will be a short post and the first written from my desk at home at instead of work, hence the title.

Here are some goals/aspirations/ideas for the purpose and direction of this blog … Disclaimer: I may or may not disregard any or all of these at a later date and time.

-Food that I want to share … I’ve realized over the last few years that while I love to cook others view it as a mysterious art so I would like to add my voice to mix and help demystify cooking.

-LA thoughts … for serious yo, this city inspires, angers and amuses me on a regular basis. I will love sharing short lists, reviews and whatever I can about this place as a way to remember it forever.

-Fashion/Beauty … superficial maybe but we all gotta look good, whatever that means to us. I am always on a quest to find my style and perfect the right look for me. Perhaps writing about it will help me figure that out.

-Relationships/the big life stuff … I have a voice and opinion as valid as any Huffpost, Elite Daily, Thought Catalog or other site writer about life, love and relationships. I want to share what I’ve learned and continue to find out from my 7+ year relationship and the lessons on friendship and love that moving can teach you.

-Photos … yes I have Instagram for that but it never hurts to share them again. I love getting good pictures but I always aim for great ones.

For tonight, that’s all she said.

 

Learning to Shine

So this is it … in an effort to stave off boredom at work, I’ve started a blog. Is it 2006 or 2016 right now? Regardless, here I am, blogging instead of tumbling, tweeting, snapchatting and instragramming (though I do that too). Sometimes long format is the only way to think.

Thinking back to what my 2006 self would have done on a blog seems a good way to figure out why I’m here now.

Ten years ago, I would have written about the insecurities of an 18-year-old college freshman starting second semester and rushing (then pledging) a sorority. Pages on pages about friendships starting and ending, discovering parties, drinking and life in a big metro area, first crushes, dates and everything else. Looking back at the photos and posts from that time (thanks for the memories, Facebook) I see myself and think that  I really should have figured out this whole makeup thing sooner … ditto on the hair. Why don’t I talk to the people I knew then … were we really friends? Do I still want to be their friend or do I just want to feel connected to college? Should I have done it differently? Did I like myself or know enough to act differently?

I spent my middle and high school years feeling that I was another brilliant but misunderstood teen who didn’t belong but would find my place. I thought that college would be my place, the ideal setting to find myself and live the perfect movie/TV version of life. With friends that totally get you and finding that niche in the world where you are perfectly equipped for life.

Advice for me back then (and now) … You are not the wall flower, loner type … and never were, and that was not the life you wanted or needed. Stop trying to make it your thing. You like art and reading good books but you are not the art house or coffee house poet type … You am a Leo who likes parties, conversations after midnight, exploring the world, physical challenges, showing off (humbly) and being well-regarded. You want life to notice you instead of living your life only noticing others. You want to shine and work hard and shine some more because of how hard you worked.  Do, however, continue to be kind and caring, let your friends shine, listen to their problems, try to be humble and keep working hard (it will all pay off).

Flash forward to 2016 where instead of a teenage girl’s musings on college and the big scary world beyond, you will get the musings of a 28-year-old, current Los Angeles resident, Leo, mom of three furry kids and wife of one inspiring guy, who is also a food lover who loves to cook (there is a difference) and a CrossFitter. I have a job too (or is it now a career?) and I’m sure I’ll talk about that at some point but I need to learn to define my life by who I AM and not just what I DO. I’ll just say that on the best days, my job challenges and engages me completely and on the dull days, I apparently blog.

Til next time, that’s all she said.